{"id":515,"date":"2015-02-15T02:36:42","date_gmt":"2015-02-15T02:36:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/?p=515"},"modified":"2015-08-06T02:40:52","modified_gmt":"2015-08-06T02:40:52","slug":"with-every-moment-that-i-am-present-with-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/with-every-moment-that-i-am-present-with-you\/","title":{"rendered":"With Every Moment That I Am Present With You…"},"content":{"rendered":"

A little over 3 weeks ago, I woke up and I wasn’t so sure I wanted to do this life thing anymore. I’d gotten so far away from my center and rather than dealing with what there was to deal with in the present, I was doing everything that I could to escape, looking for every semblance of sweetness outside of myself. I’d consumed myself with a vision of a future that did not exist. I overlooked what there was to see in my relationship and suddenly, I was forced to face reality. Poof. He was gone to face the circumstances of his own reality. It felt sharp, and cold, and devastatingly painful, and there was no escape.<\/span><\/p>\n

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And so I found myself actually going to that place I never imagined–and it’s hard to even write it now. I didn’t want to be me, living this life. I wanted desperately for the pain to end. I wasn’t so sure that I could endure anymore…something closely resembling rock bottom.<\/p>\n

And I chose to get up. My mom was recovering from surgery in the hospital, the dogs needed to be cared for and the last thing in the world I thought I wanted or needed…I had an in-person Soul Purpose Astrology Session with a client that afternoon. I literally cried up until about 5 min before that session. Something inside of me wouldn’t let me cancel.<\/p>\n

Thank God.<\/p>\n

It was in that session that I found myself. As I held up the mirror, reflecting her power back to her, I found my power. As I created a space for her to soften into love for all of her many parts, I fell in love with my many parts. I was offering up the gift of my existence, and receiving the gift of existence at the same time. No need to escape. I walked away from that session enlivened by the present, and suddenly the circumstances of my grief had some distance from my heart.<\/p>\n

These past few weeks have continued to challenge me, have had me wanting to run away from myself and yet, with each passing day I’m surrendering to the present. In fact, I’m hungry for it. The past and the future only exist in my thoughts. Suffering only exists in my thoughts. Story. Illusion. Unreality.<\/p>\n

With every moment that I am present with you, I feel grounded, alive with a growing sense of peace for what is. I actually want to deal with what there is to deal with–I’m in my power and connected with my capacity to not only cope but, even further, to create. To be present with you is to be present with myself.<\/p>\n

To be of service, to give my gift, to show up for you, to hear and see you and shine the light on your brilliant beauty has, literally, given me my life back.<\/p>\n

I’m teary as I write this. I don’t have any more words, just a heart full of emotion, full with life.<\/p>\n

\u00a92015 Melissa Simonson<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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