{"id":494,"date":"2015-01-25T23:04:48","date_gmt":"2015-01-25T23:04:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/?p=494"},"modified":"2015-04-07T23:06:22","modified_gmt":"2015-04-07T23:06:22","slug":"grieving","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/grieving\/","title":{"rendered":"Grieving"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Every painful loss I have ever endured has only been the loss of an illusion.<\/p>\n<p>And it fucking hurts in every cell of my body as I grieve and resist. I get angry at God, like my wants were a perfect plan ripped away, like I&#8217;m being punished for something, like a spoiled child screaming, &#8220;You never let me have ANYTHING!!!!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And then, somehow, I surrender. I pick up the pieces and move on. Life goes on without my illusion.<\/p>\n<p>Today, I&#8217;m not there yet. I was really attached to this illusion.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Every painful loss I have ever endured has only been the loss of an illusion. And it fucking hurts in every cell of my body as I grieve and resist. I get angry at God, like my wants were a &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/grieving\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[159,32,33,36,80,158,182,131],"class_list":["post-494","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-love-revelation","tag-anger","tag-grief","tag-growth","tag-honesty","tag-letting-go","tag-pain","tag-surrender","tag-waking-up"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/494","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=494"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/494\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":495,"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/494\/revisions\/495"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=494"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=494"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/melissasimonson.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=494"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}