There is this deeply sacred part of me
who is emerging. blossoming.
becoming
loose. unleashed.
there is surrender here. vulnerability.
there is a tenderness birthing herself
warm and free.
all that I feel is magic.
the beauty that is all of me.
I am in wonder. I am in awe.
and I am
fiercely.
ardently.
zealously.
in love.
©2014 Melissa Simonson
Tonight’s magical NYC subway adventure included a conversation with a very close-talking, surprisingly profound and maybe a little psychic drunk man telling me that he was “very attracted to my light” and that I belong on Stephen Colbert or Broadway, 🙂 , followed by a deep conversation with a man newly studying to be a lawyer about, NLP, Eckhart Tolle’s the Power of Now, Jed Mckenna, Byron Katie, Landmark Worldwide (It was a long train ride from the city at this hour).
And the evening ended with a text message from this new friend: “Melissa, amazing connecting with you. your journey is going to be as beautiful as you decide to make it. Thinking makes it so.”
This whole night began with my heading into the city to grab a drink with a lovely man who I met on the Subway last week who was reading an inspirational book that grabbed my attention.
All of my life, people have warned me to “keep my guard up” and worried about my daring willingness to leap into the unknown, befriend strangers, and go off the beaten path. Even in the midst of connecting with kind strangers like this man, I’m met with concern that I be careful in whom I put my trust.
The fact of the matter is that I wholeheartedly trust me and my inner guidance system. I’m just really good at following the YES in my heart and also listening for the NO, and nearly 33 years into this life I’m living, which has included travel to other countries and cities and meeting countless people, I have yet to have experienced anything short of magic.
I’m not lucky or extra blessed or extra special in my experience of miracles showing up daily in my life. I’ve just chosen to show up wherever I am from a place of wonder and a desire to connect, of sharing myself and discovering the light inside of others.
Love begets more love y’all. And as my lovely new friend said, “thinking makes it so.”
:)Melissa
©2014 Melissa Simonson
I woke up feeling heavy, on the verge of getting sick, like I could sleep forever. Efforting at my life, not loving my life, feeling lost and alone and in between. I managed to shower and put myself together and get my butt to a cafe. And then this happened: Out of the blue a dear special person in my life, who I’ve not been well-connected to lately texted me (conversation shared with permission) and so worth reading to the end.
Him: Just finished The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer. Goes nicely with Jed McKenna.
Me: Ooh! Thank you, Love!
Him: Been reading Jed?
Me: Yes. Stepped away from it briefly amidst my Brooklyn move (I’m there now!) a good reminder to revisit him.
Him: How’s NYC?
Me: It’s very NYC! Hahaha! I’m enjoying learning a new structural language for my life here and am also very tired. Needing to pace myself. Looking for a room to sublet while I rent a room from a friend for the month. Start the Landmark Introduction Leaders Program tomorrow, which I’m excited about–an opportunity to meet some amazing peeps and keep expanding. I’m in the midst of a big uplevel. Lots of stuff moving and shifting!
(Where the magic happens)
Him: Did you start some efforting again, Miss Simonson?
(Some internal resistance to this question)
Me: Hmmmmm…much of this has unfolded with ease. And yes, efforting. I guess I’m not experiencing a clear distinction between efforting and not efforting. I decided that I wanted to do the into leaders program which starts tomorrow, and I definitely had to move my booty to get here to fulfill on that desire. Truly, though, I think I’ve been pretty uplifted in this process. It’s more the daily coping with complete newness and being connected to the internal sense of home amidst perceived chaos. So yes, efforting. 🙂
Him: 🙂 Remember what surrender feels like?
Me: Yes.
Him: Which one do you prefer?
Me: SURRENDER!!!! 🙂
Him: Me too. 🙂 Do you remember your way back?
Me: Maybe not.
Him: You don’t create stuff that looks like what you’re thinking. You create stuff that looks like what you’re feeling.
Me: Mmmm…yes.
Him: So I would look for any places where you’ve placed a higher value on what you’re thinking about in the moment than on how you’re feeling in the moment. I would look for opportunities to say no to things I would have definitely said yes to in the past. I would make my default answer NO, unless it’s a HELL YES. But if it’s a hell yes, that’s pretty obvious.
Me: Yes. Like “making money” and “finding the perfect” apartment.
Him: Yeah, stop thinking about those things if they don’t light you up. Get back to lavish self-care.
Me: Def doing that…my heart says, “beauty please” so that’s what’s been pulling me. 🙂
Him: Good. Be monomaniacal about that.
Me: I love these insights so much. Thank you!
Him: Lose yourself in creating beauty for you. Forget everything else.
Me: Yay! Deep nourishing breath filling my lungs…
Him: That’s truth recognition.
Me: Yes…as are the watery eyes.
Him: If you create from wanting safety, approval, and control, you create a world where you need those things. And they’re all imaginary. I prefer a world where I’m free from wanting those things.
Me: I can feel the distinction. Perfect.
Him: Wanting is the opposite of having. If you don’t want them, you never lose them. You’re perfect. And your existence is the gift. Not your struggle.
Me: Smile of truth recognition.
Him: Just be. No doing required – ever.
Me: You are amazing. Thank you for this precious gift.
Him: Always a pleasure to give you back to you. 🙂
And I’m left feeling opened, softened and deeply loved. I am so blessed.
©2014 Melissa Simonson
Yesterday, as I was connecting with a client, we were reflecting on the experience of “home” in light of my recent move to Brooklyn. She said something really powerful (my clients are brilliant): “I think all of us are just searching for that sense of home in our own way.” The search for clarity, for confidence, to “get it right,” to know why we’re here, etc…these are all just different ways of searching for the experience of being at home in our own skin.
And it hit me: This is what I provide through The Soul-Mapping Journey. I unveil the map of your core essence, I connect you to your inner truth, I guide you home to yourself. And what does it feel like when you come home? It feels like clarity. Like freedom. Like comfort. Like acceptance. It feels like “there is nothing wrong here”…because there isn’t, of course.
Through the Soul-Mapping Journey, my clients come home to everything that matters to them, to what lights them up, and they see clearly, the pieces that have been missing for them, they gain access to new paths to create the fulfilling lives that they are longing for.
When we feel at home in our own skin, we naturally become generous with our love, and life takes a quantum leap. Obstacles turn into opportunities. We create and call forth what we want with ease. Life just flows because we are in flow.
And so, as I navigate this next chapter in my own growth journey, I am acutely aware that even in this new place, I am naturally easing into a sense of home because I am living out the YES inside of my soul.
And I want to create the opportunity for you to have this sense of home wherever you go or whatever dreams you wish to pursue, too. Between now and March 31st, the Soul-Mapping Journey is available at 50% of it’s valued worth through my GoFundMe project. As I ease into this next chapter of my life, I want to make it really easy for you to do the same. Let’s come home together, shall we?
http://www.gofundme.com/
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If you want to explore and uncover what might be available for you through embarking with me on The Soul-Mapping Journey, I offer a FREE Discovery Session to explore whether or not the program is a right fit for you. In this session you will receive:
– Clarity around your core needs & longings, right now
– Clarity around how you can meet those core needs & longings
– An unleashed desire to pursue your passions
– Unconditional love & acceptance for who you are and where you are in your life
– Full access to tools that you can use to create a life that you love
That’s a lot of deliciousness, no?
Private message me with your request to schedule your free sesh and I will send you my calendar so that we can get that schedule.
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xo,
:)Melissa
©2014 Melissa Simonson
It is a weird and uncomfortable experience to not have a clear sense of “home.” Today marks my 2nd full day in Brooklyn and Yesterday’s big accomplishments included finding a local grocery that I like so that I could actually have food at home, picking up odds and ends for daily living…I’m of course, already noticing the things that I forgot to bring, the items that I had no idea would be essential in this new space. And, oh, I didn’t get lost yesterday, which was cool.
The emotional experience, right now is one of total ungroundedness, searching for center, for the SENSE of home. I find it and create it in little moments and then it’s gone again, to then, rediscover it in another moment. Lavender essential oil filling my room, time spent with my journal, watching a favorite TV show online and reading before bed, nourishing food, my favorite lotion, creating order in my new space. There is a deep need to find and create the familiar within this completely unfamiliar place. I feel invisible and disconnected from who I am, what matters to me, what I want, what I need. And yet, the preciousness of this time is that I get to rediscover and perhaps discover for the first time, the answer to these essential questions.
My main inspiration, right now, lies in creating and relishing in beauty. Nourishing my body with movement and good food. Making my space pretty. Creating a sense of grounded spaciousness with lovely smells. Creating softness and lightness in my experience.
There are powerful fears lurking beneath the surface that I’ll get stuck and consumed by a mode of survival, that I will lose sight of who I am, that I’ll forget and disappear somehow, that I won’t accomplish what matters to me in my heart…and my inner Wise Woman is smiling at me as she reminds me I’ve only been here for 2 days. Now is not the time to climb mountains, it is time to rest in the valley, to gather up strength, to listen within for what is “home” and then to lean into those experiences with all of my heart. That sense of home will guide me, will pull to exactly who, what and where I need to be.
And so I honor my fear for not letting me forget that I am a leader feeling called to accomplish big, loving things in the months and years ahead. And for now, I bring myself back to the here and now, I meet myself with gentleness and patience and ease, and I listen and follow the voice of home that lives in my belly and my bones.
And as I write these words while listening deeply to my inner landscape, I hear a soft whisper telling me that magic awaits, and I am smiling, tears glistening in my eyes.
xo Melissa
P.S. Feel inspired to support my soul journey to NYC while claiming AMAZING rewards–like the opportunity to be supported by me through your own transformation at kickass discount prices? Visit: http://www.gofundme.com/MelissaNYCJourney to learn more!
©2014 Melissa Simonson