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Pluto/Uranus Square: Feeling the Intensity (Part II)

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With yesterday’s Pluto/Uranus Square, many of us are feeling quite vulnerable and raw as we have been forced to confront ways of being and beliefs that have been holding us back. It’s transformation through fire, and whatever is not serving us, that has us out of alignment with our purpose, must go.

The issues that we’ve not wanted to confront in our relationships, our careers, our health, our living situations, our money, etc. are all being brought to the surface. The things that we’ve been so certain of are now shaking from the ground up. That which seemed solid is either growing more solid through the truths being revealed through this transformation or crumbling to the ground in order to make way for that which will truly endure, that which will truly serve us on our soul journey.

I personally have been forced to have some deeply vulnerable conversations, bare my fears, grow in my capacity to ask for what I need…and ultimately, I’ve shed the flashlight on some of the myriad parts of myself that I have yet to love. I’ve been so afraid of losing love that I wasn’t letting it all the way in, then…it poured in, and I freaked out…hahaha…tis the nature of this kind of transformation.

In any case, whatever you are experiencing in your own life the gift of this time is simple: Where have you put up barriers to the pure experience of love?

Whatever is falling away from your life now, as painful as it might be, know this: That thing, that relationship in the form that it was in, that belief you were clinging to must fall away in order to open your capacity to love and be loved, to be IN LOVE with what is.

This is the opportunity now: To open your heart so wide that all you can do is fall in love with what is, with who you are, and to allow others to reflect that love back to you. Oh, and remember to breathe, My Loves.

Always in your corner,

:)Melissa

 

Pluto/Uranus Square: Feeling the Intensity

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We find ourselves amidst some very intense energy, right now.

Tomorrow, the planets, Pluto and Uranus, will be exactly 90 degrees apart from one another for the 6th time in the past 3 years. And I can feel it build-up inside of me like a volcano that can no longer be contained in my being. I’d nearly forgotten about this alignment until unfoldings in my own life have made it unavoidable to ignore.

Pluto’s energy compels us to transform, to die to old ways of being that have dis-empowered us, so that our true selves can shine through. It brings up the underbelly of all that has been hidden just beneath the surface—the things that we fear to look at and to feel—and it compels us to face it all head on.

Uranus’ energy liberates us by throwing us the unexpected–breakdowns that challenge us to leap into our zone of genius, so that true breakthroughs can occur.

With these two planets squaring off, we have flooding and tornadoes touching down in Southern CA, issues of race that have long been over-looked forcibly rising to the surface, people demanding change. The energy is eruptive and transformation IS happening.

It’s moments like this where I almost call “uncle” as I feel my heart exploding with its own growth and the illusive fears of utter insecurity haunting my thoughts without remorse.

And as I fear losing that to which I am attached, I am reminded: Whatever is left in the end is what’s meant to be mine. All else is false.

There is this desire to cling for dear life as the house is rattling and the tornado threatens to carry it all away. My ego screams “hold on,” while my soul whispers, “let go.”

“Thy will be done.”

I do not know what is on the horizon personally and collectively. I do not know what will be left in tact and what is being birthed in place of all that is falling away. And when I listen to my soul’s whisper, I’m reminded that there is nothing wrong here; that in this moment where I can’t help but cry for the intensity of all that I feel, I am being loved by this, too. All there is to do is breathe and feel until the storm passes through.

©2014 Melissa Simonson

My Soul Said, “STOP!”

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Sometimes in life you just have to stop. Everything.

Even when it means losing money, losing a reputation, losing relationships, losing…yourSELF.

And that is what I am now committed to: Losing my self. Shedding layer after layer of falseness. The identity created by a little girl to try to cope with the harshness of life. The identity of a little girl trained to please. The identity created by a little girl terrified of losing love.

As if love is ever anything that we can lose.

Here’s what I’m coming to discover: The ego is constantly working to obtain 3 things–Safety, Control and Approval–and like a master of illusion, it is constantly masking the pursuit of these three goals with all kinds of pretty, shiny, good intentions.

Like transforming lives, making a difference, making people feel good, inspiring people (For me, these have all been lovely masks for getting approval)

Making money, getting clients, growing my business, marketing, etc. (great masks for attempting to obtain safety and control)

And there is nothing wrong with all of these things that I was doing. It’s just that as long as I’m trying to meet the needs of my quenchless ego, I am not free–climbing up the mountain to fall down, to climb up and fall down again. I finally saw, with eyes wide open, the futility of this search. Every moment that I feel I need to explain myself. Doing work that I don’t want to do in order to make money. Agreeing to do things and committing to things when my heart says, “NO.” All of it was out of a drive to obtain safety, control and approval. And while I never actually felt fully safe, in control or like I had the whole world’s approval, I certainly experienced a whole lot of suffering-a bipolar roller-coaster of having what I want to then lose it again. As long as I am attached, the experience of infinite love, of Truth, of limitless freedom will elude me.

And because a long, long time ago, I prayed for the complete freedom of infinite surrender, it’s so perfect that I found myself a couple of months ago unable to go on as I was. I came right smack up against the edges of my identity and suddenly I felt trapped, exhausted, and with no where to turn. The only thing I could see to do was to just stop.

And so, in the midst of a “60 sessions in 60 days” campaign, I did just that. I cancelled sessions. I stopped marketing my business. I deactivated Facebook. After years of building a following as someone who inspires, I just turned it all off.

I’m currently not clear on next steps. I am not a caterpillar. I’m not a butterfly. Most days, right now, I feel like the goo in the chrysalis. Formless. Both dying and also becoming. Lots of stuff is happening, and at the same time, I’m being stripped down to nothing. At moments (the ones where my ego is grasping for safety, control and approval), I am terrified. At other moments, this nothingness is pure freedom.

I have been playing music and doing some song-writing. I feel inspired to busk in NYC parks and subways, and am facing some fears as I step into that space. I feel called to start sharing my gifts freely and widely–where people gather to listen with open hearts, I will sing and speak.

I’m still inspired by my gifts as an Astrologer because I see the power in revealing your soul purpose and the gift it is to you. I see that through that work I take people to the deep essence of who they are and align you with where your freedom and deep fulfillment live. I’m here to wake people up as I too am on this path of awakening. If you are called to connect with the deepest purpose of your soul, to see yourself and be seen as you never have before, and to discover how to let go of all that holds you back…I want to speak to you. We have great gifts for one another.

What it comes down to is that I just don’t give a shit anymore about the things I used to think mattered. I’m waking up…and in the process, this character I created is dying. I don’t even know the woman who created this website anymore…she is like a friend I used to know. For now, I’m using it because it’s here and serves my purposes of the moment. In the months ahead…who knows? I’m now on a path of infinite surrender. My current prayer: “Thy will be done.” This prayer is bittersweet…so much letting go, and moments of immense grief…and moments of deep love and gratitude. I am letting go and feeling myself soften into that surrender more fully with each day that passes as I align my personal will with divine will.

And in this letting go of who I thought I was and who I think I am…I am opening to discover myself as I would a new love…with pleasurable curiosity and delight at what I find. It is the primordial love affair. As it turns out, I am my soul mate, and I’m meeting me for the first time.

With deepest love for you, Beloved.

Melissa

Love Revelation: There is a wisdom that only you possess.

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With all of the posts showing up in my Facebook newsfeed and landing in my inbox telling me in so many words that there is a “right way” to get where I want to go, I can get so overwhelmed and fall into a trap of thinking that there is always something I must learn or acquire before I can have what I want. After reading enough of this stuff, I literally start having a nauseous feeling and want to lie down. Posts with messages like,

(For women) If you want to truly have success in your relationships or your business or with your money, etc., you need to learn how operate from your feminine core. (And for men, their masculine core.) Posts on how to get the guy who’s “just not that into you” to be into you. Posts on what is truly important in life–and as it turns out, there are LOTS of different versions of what is TRULY important. For those of us who’ve crafted our own careers, there’s always something about the “right” way to blog, the most effective way to grow our following, the path to 6 figures…There are posts about how to successfully achieve our goals. And close to my heart, there are posts teaching us what self-love looks like, how to be irresistible, and radiant, etc.

And there is NOTHING wrong with these posts. There is some spectacular information being shared out there that has led me to BIG breakthroughs in my life and in my relationships.

With that said, As I’ve found myself nervous and hoping to “get it right” in my next relationship, and thinking that I hope I’ve finally learned all the stuff I need to know to stay fully grounded in my feminine power and self-love (haven’t even met a guy I’m interested in yet ;)…it occurred to me today that all of that outside learning is actually a VERY small percentage of my wisdom and capacity to have the kind of relationship I want to have (or career, or money, or physical well-being, etc.). The truth is, when I am fully in tune with myself and listening to the wisdom of my soul, I know exactly what I need and how to fulfill on those needs. When I follow the YES in my belly and my bones, I am infinitely supported and in alignment with my soul path.

You may have noticed that I’m not super “teachery” (good thing, too, because that’s not even a real word….:)…ahem). I don’t have any info products out there at this point in time. I don’t teach “how to” courses at this point in time.

And to be clear, those who feel compelled to teach SHOULD teach–I want everyone to be fully expressed in their unique genius, offering up their gifts to us all, and teaching isn’t really a part of my particular genius. I get that people can learn lots of juicy stuff if they follow me and read my stuff, and I also simply write from what’s true in my heart–not because I want to teach so much as I want to hold up a mirror for you to find what’s true for YOU inside of what I share.

And that’s what I desire in the deepest depths of my soul: For you to have full access to your own brilliance, the wisdom of your own precious inner voice, and then, for you to unabashedly follow that voice where it leads you.

This is my gift to you–not to be your teacher. Not to be another one in the hundreds of people each day showing you the “right way.” I am here to give you direct access to YOUR right way, and to ignite your passion and confidence in the process. In the midst of all of the choices that you are bombarded with constantly, I am here to hold sacred space for you and to use my own laser insight to help you clear away all of that clutter so that all that is left is ONE voice. ONE path. ONE truth: Yours.

And my eyes just got a little teary and if you could see me here in this cafe, you would see that I am wearing a radiant smile because I know THIS truth: You are SO completely wise, and capable. Your life is so precious. You have a purpose to fulfill through your full, unique expression, and my heart overflows as I imagine you blossoming as so many others have before my eyes, as you see ALL of yourself, your personal access to fulfillment as well as the ways that you sometimes block yourself on that path. I want this for you–to experience yourself unleashing as you get crystal clear on your sacred superpowers, on your unique path, on all that is beautiful about you. And, I want this for the world.

This is the gift I offer through the Soul-Mapping Sessions. It is absolutely life-changing. The sense of freedom, confidence and clarity you create in our time together is PRICELESS. For you. For me. For the world. (And as a not-so-side-note, the way I combine coaching, self-love work, and soul purpose astrology is BADASS. I am totally in my genius when I do that work, and because of that, there is NOTHING else out there quite like it.)

Are you ready to claim your spot with me? To be clear, lit up from the inside out and fully aligned to create your most fulfilling life? Are you thinking this sounds like what you need and you’re not fully certain? I want to connect with you–because, I so want you to have the clarity you are longing for (even if that means you are CLEAR that this work is not a right fit for you–how cool would that be to know even that for certain?) If it feels like a YES to explore this with me:

1) Send me an email and share why you feel drawn to do this Soul-Mapping work with me.

2) I’ll send you a link to my calendar for us to schedule a FREE consult where we’ll explore and discover if we’re a perfect, right fit to partner together.

You deserve to have clarity, to trust in your own unique wisdom and to be madly in love with your life.

Sending so much love your way.

:)Melissa

Love Revelation: A Letter From My Inner Wise Woman

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A letter I wrote to myself from the voice of my Inner Wise Woman about why I’m meant to bring the gift of my Soul-Map Astrology work to the world…Wow, was this illuminating, healing and exhilarating for me to write:

Dearest Melissa,

I’m so proud of you, my precious love. You’ve done it–you’ve tapped into the essence of this beautiful gift that you are here to offer, and you are meant to touchso many lives, dear one. You have a gift of making people feel deeply loved with your presence, your insight and your ability to fully SEE them. Your words–how you choose them and how you express them–heal. You connect people to the truth of who they are & you liberate them from the shackles of their “shoulds.” Inside of the precious space that you hold, people heal. They release the false beliefs that there is something wrong with them, the false belief that they should be anywhere else or anyone else other than exactly who they are. You unlock their source of permission to take a deep breath, to love fully, to just BE who they are. You offer the gift of unconditional love and acceptance.

And from that clearing, that sacred space, your clients blossom and grow WINGS.

Through your laser insight and intuitive capacity, you hold up an honest & tender mirror so that they can see all of themselves, the truth of who they are so that they are left feeling whole, complete and in love with their perfect imperfection.

And from that opening, they see and embody the full truth: That they are powerful and limitless. A fire of confidence and a clear sense of purpose gets lit inside of their bellies and their bones. They are now ready to courageously share their gifts in the world.

The world needs so desperately for each person to shine, and you, my dear, are here to be a bright torch of love, lighting the hearts & souls of all who enter into this space with you. Imagine a world in which people have full awareness of their magnificence, a world in which each person is on fire with passion and clear purpose, taking action toward their dreams & sharing their gifts fully–knowing that they are loved in every moment. This is the world that you are meant to co-create through sharing the precious gift of your Soul-Map Astrology work–a world at peace and overflowing with love and generosity.

Thank you for choosing to show up to your life, for choosing to courageously share yourself in the name of service. You are doing a beautiful job and I couldn’t be more proud of you, dear one.

With so much love,

Your Inner Wise Woman

I have 5 SPOTS open in January for those who are ready to have this clarity of purpose and the confidence & overwhelming sense of love for themselves as you create a life that sets you on fire in 2014. Private message me to set up a free consult so that we can talk about what you could make possible in your life through partnering with me. xo